its been a while... my lifes a lie now...

why do i feel douped? like i was pushed on a lie? that everyone is just lying to me to try to make me feel better sometimes? why does it make me feel worse? why can't i understand life and how it works and why some people can love but still give it away but say they still love the person? I don't understand. I always learned that if you love it and it loves you, don't get rid of it. love conqures. but you say you love me, but you want to let me go rather then anything else. i mean i guess the saying to "love and lose is better then to never love at all" is true, but it doesn't feel it, the hurts so much. why do i feel like the last few weeks, the last promises of trying to make things better where a lie, that you knew this was gonna happen, that you knew that you one day soon where gonna be with katie, that you knew you had to hurt me to be happy, but you lied and said we'll work on it...